I dunno what the deal is but my nipples have been perky for like four days straight. I mean really perky. Like poking-holes-through-my-tee kinda perky. I'm not cold or anything. Or even horny. The just keep sticking out. I wear small tees. Not like tight or anything ... just .... well .. close-fitting so they show through my tees.

There aren't like any 'nipple' syndromes are there? *blinks*

Today was just a weird and somewhat lazy day.

I felt totally drained. I fooled around with this site a little. Fixing links and stuff. I kept thinking about Bryan and that loan. Norm too. I mean everytime she called me she was like "I still can't believe this."

"Believe Nor....wait are you eating bon bons? You're at home? Eating bon bons?"

She laughed. "Yes I am. And you know? I don't eat a lot of chocolate. I have too much on my mind."

Ok ... right now, there are these kids running up and down the hall. You can tell they're brats too.

Anyway .... I actually got some work done today.

I felt cold inside though. The whole day. Not just today. A few days now. Maybe that's why my nipples are all perky hehehe. Seriously though .....

I dunno. I mean ... right now I'm trying to be apathetic to pretty much everything and everyone. I'm getting tired of feeling again. You feel ... you get....gosh cant somebody shut that kid up?.... you get hurt. The brats in the hall or the next apartment or whatever are screaming and driving me nuts. They need to go to bed. Its late.

*deep breath*

Sooo ... Kat messaged me today. Like pretty much everyday. Talking to her and my mom are depressing now. I hardly even reply. I just type "oh" .... "ok" ... "oh ok" every now and then. She always says something that makes me wish I never gave them my new email and Yahoo! ID. I mean ... that shouldn't be right? I mean ... they're my family. *sigh*

Anyway ... enough of that. I'm always thinking too much about that.

I heard from Joey tonight. I didn't really know if I would've. I didn't want to keep telling myself that I will fer sure and then fall hard when it didn't happen. I actually emailed him last night before I went to bed. Just to tell him that I honestly had a good time.

He wanted to hang out tonight. I couldn't cuz I don't have keys for Eric's apartment naturally. He would've given me his keys but I didn't want to deal with that y'know. I did something stupid though. I told him I wanted to kiss him Sunday night when we went out. I don't even know why I told him. So much for being apathetic huh. He didn't reply like ... "Oh yah? You want me baby don't you? C'mon ... you know you want me. Gggggrrrr." Which is a good thing. He's off tomorrow. Maybe I could leave Jake's early and meet up with him.

There I go again ...... getting eager.

*closes his eyes and chants* .... be apathetic ..... be apathetic .... a-a-a-a-pathe-e-e-etic ......

*opens his eyes and mouths the word 'apathetic'*