Sometimes I wish I could take away everyone's pain. At least everyone I know. Sometimes I feel I'm more deserving of being alone. And being sad. And hurting. I don't know why I feel I am. I just do. Maybe I feel I'm better at dealing with it? I'm probably not but I feel I am. It's hard to explain.

I woke up from another Nyquil-generated dream this morning. Jennifer Knapp wanted me to sing with her. This girl I knew in highschool came to a party and didn't realize her jeans were unzipped. I walked up to her and had to whisper for her to fix herself.

Today was pretty lazy. I worked some more on that site for Eric. I think I messed up my blogs. I moronically tried to archive my October - November posts and I think it's sorta messed up now. Plus I realize now that I can't edit the older posts now that they're archived which kinda sucks. So I might start another Diaryland diary and use it blog-style.

There's food in the house again. I went shopping earlier. Walked over to Pathmark, took a bus back home and realized I forgot a bag with two cartons of juice over there. Pathmark is not around the corner and I'm not feeling all that great with this cold coming on. Ever get a feeling that some things happen for a reason? That maybe some magic would come of something? At first, I thought long and hard about why that happened. Why I left that stupid bag over at the supermarket. Why I had to call them and be put on hold forever while they checked.

"How did you two meet?"

"Well, I moronically left a bag at Pathmark. Had to go all the way back and that's when we met. He bumped into me as I opened the door. And I just knew ... *sigh*. Just think ... if I hadn't forgotten that bag at Pathmark, we never would've met" *fake TV-chuckle*

Of course, we're talking about my life. The only thing that happened was being refered to as 'that girl' a couple times before I got my bag. That and then waiting forever for a bus home.

The Christmas tree in the lobby's starting to piss me off. And I saw the Super putting up more decorations. Blah!

Blah!