Whoa! That's weird. The time. All fours.

I'm in Greenwich with the cat. Eric and Amber left about a half hour ago. I feel like running around naked and doing backflips. Actually, I stink and I need to go take a shower in a while. I was too tired to shower when I got in last night.

I slept a little on the drive to Connecticut. It took forever to leave the office. Soon after getting in, Eric and I were out again to get groceries. Seeing Amber erases all the time in between the last time I was around her. The apartment's really nice. They don't have much furniture though. IKEA screw-up, I think. Greenwich is nice. But I wonder if it'll still be nice after being here for a week.

"I'm probably the only black person within a 12 mile radius."

"Oh? No, there's a prison down the street," responded Eric.

It's his sensitivity I like hehe.

Am I intimidating? I keep thinking I must be if Ross seems to like sending emails filled with doubt about us. Or do I just seem sneaky or something? He sent me an email last night, basically saying that if I don't have the same feelings for him, I should let him know, anything less would be ... and I quote "inhumane"

"what if he just wants "SOMEONE, ANYONE"...cuz if he does, then he will now reject me, cuz he has "had" me and now he's ready for b.f.#2"

I didn't even know what to say. I should probably write it off as another drunken email. Thing that really gets to me is ... when he does that, I can't get in touch with him to talk about it for a couple days. I'm not about to go through a relationship having to prove every minute that my feelings are real. It doesn't show trust.

"If you really care about me, you'll run across the street during rush hour."
"If you're serious about us, you'll cut all ties from your family and friends and move into the mountains with me."
"If you really want me, you'll stop ... shopping!" *scream*