Why is the chase always the best part? And why can't it always be that nice? For once ... I'm not the one who's bored. Blah.

When Aaron and I first started chatting online ... we'd always find stuff to talk about. Sometimes I couldn't even keep up with him. I think it's all that Red Bull he drinks hehe. And he would always ask when I'll be in the city ... or say I should come in. We hadn't even met yet.

But now ... now it seems like we skipped right past the sex, everything in between and now we're standing ... slouching even ... on the 'old married couple' square. The game's not fun anymore. We weren't even dating! So ... I mean ... what is going on?

Saturday night he said he wasn't going out. Then ... I talk to him the next day and he's telling me that the Tori Amos album release party at Limelight sucked.

"I thought you weren't going out."

"Alex came over and was like 'let's go ... let's go!' ... so I went."

Great.

I know I'm not the most interesting person to be around but ... blah. I don't even know. We barely talk now. Even online. I dunno ... maybe he feels he already caught the elusive Angelboi. I sorta just miss the way we used to chat. He still makes me laugh. And I still like being around him ... even though it's been a while. And now it's like ... do I say something? Can I say something without coming off as the 'emotional' one? Because ... I am. I'd be lying if I said I'm not. I'm always the first one to say "I like you." Would be nice for once to hear it first.

I have no idea what I should do. Just leave him alone? I feel I should. I'm probably thinking too much anyway. I just sorta hate things being so up in the air. Yom Kipur's this week. I wont see him. Then ... he leaves for vacation in the Caribbean for a week. So I wont see him for a couple weeks.