Fuck·buddy (füc-bü-dee): noun. Person designated for having sexual relations with no great emotional attachment.

I have nothing against fuck-buddies. If two people are attracted to each other and just like having sex ... good for them. Thing that really pisses me off with guys is ... they play the friendship card. That's not allowed. Don't say you want to be my friend and you want to hang out when you know that all you wanna do is fuck me. Don't do that. Don't lie about stupid stuff like that. I mean ... don't lie. Period. But especially about things like that. A lot of guys would get so much further if they were just honest.

If Edward had just said, "I think you're kinda hot (or easy or whatever) and I want to fool around with you." I could've said yes or no. But he didn't. He went on playing the friendship card. Same with Tyler who of course, I haven't heard from again. "Would be cool to hang out." Bullshit. And you know it.

It's totally different when you both have the understanding, signed the contract and pinky-sweared that it's just fooling around. That's why Victor used to piss me off so much. Playing the friendship card. You know you have no desire to go see a movie with me. You only want to see me naked and lying on your bed/couch/backseat of your car .... so shut up.

He actually messaged me last night. He asked what my weekend plans were. I told him nothing.

"So let's meet up and make love again."

"We didn't 'make love', Victor. We had sex," I actually rolled my eyes as I typed that to him.

"So let's meet up and have sex then hehe."

That's about the time I laughed and told him 'good night'. He doesn't get to me anymore. He doesn't piss me off anymore. He doesn't turn me on either. I don't get all excited and wet when I see his screen name. But there are a couple people who hold that power. Sadly, Edward is one of them. And that's why I've deleted him from my buddylist. Then ... added him back. Then ... took him off again ... Added ... deleted ... added ... deleted.

Aaarrgghh!

So yah ... I pretty much slept all day. Mark was up and playing guitar. I pulled the covers over my head and fell back to sleep. I got up around 12:30. I've mastered the art of holding off taking my morning piss for a long while. It's all about lying on my stomach, I think. I delayed it for a good hour or so. Damn, I'm good hehe. Technically, I'm in a better mood. Mainly because I get sad so often that it doesn't last. It'll just come back a day or so from now. I'm still tired of being alone and broke all the time. But ... *shrugs* eh ... it's been that way for a while now. Maybe I'm finally getting used to it. I dunno.

I got up and had cereal. 'Homer's Cinnamon Doughnuts'. I like almost anything cinnamon. Plus I love the Simpsons. Then I finished the corn muffin I started snacking on last night. Know what tastes really good? Cereal milk. All sweetened and flavored from the cereal. Nothing like it. In fact ... they should market that. Cartons of leftover milk from cereal. It can be easily made. You just empty the crumbs at the bottom of the cereal bag into a huge vat of milk. And they sell if by flavor:

• Cap'n Crunch (that would sell big)
• Cocoa Krispies (Cocoa Pebbles make the milk way too chocolatey)
• Honey Nut Cheerios
• Froot Loops (which I don't like that much but would sell big)
• Rice Krispies Treats (that kinda cereal milk serious kicks ass! Hot sell!)
• Lucky Charms (very cool)
• Apple Jacks
• Apple Cinnamon Cheerios

The list goes on and on.