Sometimes, the frustration becomes overwhelming. When that happens, I just stop. I just figure that it's no use. That unless they're in the same situation, they wouldn't understand. Most times it's simply because they don't want to. The only way I'll be higher on the list of priorities is if I mattered.

Today has all 'hell-day' potential. I have to meet with Amanda and go over the last changes on the booklet. I'm supposed to see Norm to edit some of her presskit stuff. I'm not exactly sure how I'll manage this since I can't be in Midtown and the Upper Eastside at the same time.

Aaron messaged me yesterday while I was in White Plains. I miss him and it's wrong. I want to see him and that's even worse. We talked for a while. He and his boyfriend are looking to buy an apartment or something. At first I didn't know what to feel, hearing/watching the words on the screen. Then I realized that I really am over him and I just want to see him (Seeing boyfriend optional. Restrictions may apply. Meeting in person only good if I look incredible and having a good day. Offer void if I haven't had enough sleep).