So... my sister just told me on Yahoo! Messenger that they have to put one of my dogs to sleep. I just need to stop crying now so I can go to bed. He's too old and barely eating. And there's nothing I can do. I can't even be there for him, y'know. I feel totally shitty now. Totally! I mean ... he's my baby. I've had him since I was like 14. I got him for my birthday. It's not fair on him ... I know. But I just wish there was something I could do. Besides sitting here and crying. Maybe be there for him. Cry and hold his paw while he's at the vet? I dunno. Just something. Say goodbye? I won't be able to say goodbye to him.