Last year I wasn't even awake yet on this date. And I was still blissfully ignorant for a good 10 minutes after I got up. I didn't think I'd feel weird but I do. I felt weird last night. All the images started coming back. Even the fear of the dark I had after watching the news nonstop. I figured at first I'd stay away from the cliche 'Year Later' entry. Everyone will pretty much have one. But y'know ...journals are supposed to record feelings and thoughts and it's natural to feel and think about what happened a year ago. The whole day makes you think about mortality and how things can change so quickly in the blink of an eye.

Last night I prayed that today is nothing like it was last year except for the weather. But in a way that's a prayer we should all make every night. I also went through all the entries I posted last while everything was happening. I can't read them without feeling my chest heave and face fall. Kat called last night. At first I didn't care too much to talk to her but now I'm really glad I did. I'll really try and at least have dinner with her some time next week. Not making any promises. She is my sister though and I love her and I ...I guess I should be nicer.