I feel weird. Weird and sad and I'm not even sure why. Maybe its the apartment thing. Richie's wife and kids are downstairs at the pool right now. I'm soooo tired. I wanna take a nap but I can't. I can't have them come back up here see me knocked out on the couch. Soooo tired. Its not just sleepy. I feel totally drained. Actually ... it has a lot to do with the apartment thing. Getting a place would be the best thing to happen to me right now. Seriously. Its not like I'll slack off when I get an apartment. I'll work harder. I'll be able to work harder. I'll definitely be happier.

I can take a frickin nap when I feel tired. I can wake up at 10 and work the rest of the day. That's something most people don't get. I think its a creative thing. Husani probably rarely wakes up before 9 but he'll work all night when he has to. That's me. My mom never understood that and always got pissed. I would always tell her that she has to be an artist to understand. I'm not a lazy person. I just play one on TV. Honest. When I have work to do ... I do it. I go all out. Stay up all night to get it done. And I never do anything half-way. It has to be the best or not at all. All that said ... I know I can make it on my own.

Ugh. I just wanna take a nap. My eyes feel so heavy right now. I just want them to come back and then leave so I can double-bolt the door and fall on the couch. If I don't nap soon and they come back say .... minutes to 7? It wont be a nap. I'll go to sleep. As in ... not getting up until morning and I don't want that *pout*.