I just finished kicking some HTML ass. I did like nothing all day. I just wasn't in the zone. I have to be in the zone to get stuff done. I have to feel creative ... and ... I didn't. Not earlier today anyway. I went for a walk in search of a Kinko's clone. I don't have a desk here and it sucks after a while twisting and bending in different positions on my bed with my laptop.

My laptop on my folded legs. Kneeling on the floor with my laptop on the bed. Sitting up with my legs open and my laptop between. Laying on my back, laptop on my stomach and the back of it resting on my thighs. It's like Computer Kama Sutra. And when I'm really into what I'm working on ... I move less ... so I'm really sore after.

I got to see a lot of the neighborhood that I haven't seen before. I think they have an Old Navy on Bergen Avenue or wherever. I didn't have a lot of money so I didn't want to stick around. It was cool walking around though. They have a small library not that far from here. They also seemed to have quite a few bargin stores. I wanna get some throw pillows and stuff for my bed and I saw some that were pretty cheap.

When I got home I tried to put my game face on but it was just not happening. Forcing creativity is pretty bad. I mean ... you can come up with something ... and it may not suck ... but it wouldn't come close to what you'd probably come up with later when you're not thinking about it too much. I read something in a book once, talking about forced creativity, that went something like:

"Sure you'll come up with an idea. Maybe even a good one. The client will love it. But it wont be original and nothing near what you could've really done."

It's so true. I've been in situations before that people just didn't have patience and I had to do rush work. It was good and they loved it but it wasn't original. And I felt weird. 'Cuz even though they loved it and saying what a good job I did ... I knew that I could've done better. And I guess ... in a way .. I felt like failure.

But I like the way things are now. I didn't have to get up at like 7am and rush off to an office or anything. I got up around 10 and just didn't do anything. I thought about the work I had to start. Just letting thoughts flow. Sometimes writing stuff down. Taking a walk around the neighborhood and trying not to think too much about what I had to do.