I get very emotional when I don't get enough sleep. I cry easier and it seems that everything makes me sad. In the last 3 days I've only had 5 and maybe a half hours of sleep. I mean shared between the 3 days.

I'm at Jake's office right now. My eyes are waaaay beyond just blood shot. This is the first and only break I've taken for the whole day. I've been up since 5 after going to sleep a little after 3.

Last week I kept hearing the legend of 'Screaming Jake'. The horror stories about what happens when he gets upset. So far I'm always in the clear. I had a meetingette .... y'know ... small version of a meeting. Anyway .... he's very happy with what he sees so far. I have like a couple corrections but nothing major. Stuff I didn't like anyway.

I'm scarfing down some pizza while I type this. First thing I've eaten for the day I should add. I felt sick this morning and didn't want to have coffee in fear of making myself really sick.

Jake gave me money for lunch. He pretty much always does. Something I hate. Hey .... don't get me wrong .... I love a good free meal. Its weird ... but I only like getting something free if I could've afforded to pay for it anyway. And I only had like 2 bucks and change on me.

'You good for lunch?'

'Oh .... sure', I smiled back.

'You sure now?'

Just when I was about to head out, Normie called.

'Was Jake happy?'

'Yup.'

'Do you have enough for lunch?'

'Yes.'

She knows me too well.

'Put Eric on the phone. I'll let them pay for lunch.'

'Noooo .... I'm good. Norm ... you know I hate taking money like that.'

'You need to eat. Now put Eric on the phone.'

It made me sad and I felt like crying in the elevator on my way to get lunch. I get pretty much the same thing everyday. One slice of cheese pizza and a snapple. The pizza guy doesn't even ask anymore. When he sees me he just smiles and holds up one finger. No .... not the middle one. Have I become that predictable though? Reminds me of Miranda on Sex & The City.

There was this episode where she calls up to get Chinese takeout. The girl on the phone knows her so well that she calls out her order and laughs the second Miranda says her address. She felt bad and decided to go down to the restaurant to confront the girl. I didn't blame her. When she got there though, the same girl was on the phone taking an order and she did the exact same thing to whoever was on the phone. When she giggled, Miranda realized that the girl wasn't being mean or anything.

I should note that I also ramble when I'm sleep deprived.

I'm not lying but I am soooooo tired right now. I slept a little on the bus and train on my way here. Something I hate doing. I had the company's laptop on the floor between my feet. I kept squeezing my legs together to make sure no one made off with the laptop.

The good thing is .... I have until Friday to make all the changes which I honestly plan on working on in a while and stay here till I'm done. I bought pastries at lunch for a good sugar rush. Problem is .... it doesn't last long. Coffee doesn't last that long either. Its hot. Anything hot makes me sleepy. I would have to drink like a good, ice cold Coke or Pepsi to stay awake. And even then .... soon after its inside me and changes to my body temperature it wears off.

Every now and then though .... I put my head on the desk and take like a 2 minute nap. If I wanted to ... I could close the door, tell everyone and sleep for a while longer. Then just get up and finish the drawings. The building's open 24 hours.

Its gonna be all over soon though. I'll never have to draw these things ever again. I don't even know if I wanna be here on my birthday, Thursday. I'm s'posed to go to this technology thingy I registered for but .... I dunno if I want to now. *shrugs*

I miss free time and updating my diary more often.

Maybe the next entry will be the one to cause me to change the 'virgin' part of my diary's title.