Everyone's pretty in snow. I mean that. It was snowing like a fiend earlier. Just like it was a couple days ago. And its always magical in a way. I like leaning against the window and just watching it fall. And rise. I love when a gust of wind blows everything up. Snow also seems to soften everything. Slows everything down. And people ... just like the falling snowflakes ... are graceful.

I went to the mall this morning to return the t-shirts I bought yesterday at Old Navy. I wanted them but I wanted the money back more than anything. Actually ... maybe that's what I should do. Buy stuff to get a shopping fix and then return 'em the next day and get my money back. Anyway ... there's a bigger reason I wanted the money back. See ... Ricky has a friend coming to New York in a couple days and I don't wanna be dead broke. She's getting tickets for 'RENT' and I'm soooo psyched. I'm also nervous to meet her. She'll be here for like a week. It sorta feels like ... I dunno ... maybe an interview before I meet Ricky himself. I dunno if that makes sense or not. But I mean ... I guess ... in a way ... she'll be looking at me not in the way Ricky would. She'll see all my flaws. She'll be able to give him a 'full report'. A full ... unbiased report. I mean ... I'm not hiding anything and I'm the exact same way in person as I am online. I'm just pretty nervous about everything. I worry too much. Ricky even says it. He's right too. I do.

Ricky's also sending a package with her. We're trading t-shirts. I'll send one of mine back with her. He's also sending some other things with it but he's not saying what ... which of course is driving me insane since I have not one drop of patience. I can't wait.