Risa called me last night. Her boyfriend is totally fucking her up. I always feel helpless when she calls me like that. I mean .... she used to live with the guy. She got pregnant for the guy. She's been with the guy for couple years now.

Like I said in that earlier entry .... he broke up with her. And in typical guy fashion .. he called her just when she was starting to get over it. I swear ... guy's always seem to know when you're getting over them so they can show up ... or call or something to break you again. That's what happened. And now ... Risa's all strung out again.

"I don't understand why he's doing this Angel Boi."

"He's a guy Risa. That's what they do. Please remember that you have school though. He doesn't."

He doesn't. He's like 25 or so. Its selfish. Risa's like 18 ... 19. I didn't wanna sound cold or anything but she is on a scholarship. I mean ... she has her whole life ahead of her I don't want her to be strung out over some guy. Its her first serious relationship and she really loves the prick. I didn't know what to tell her though. I couldn't really offer that much. I haven't been in a relationship like that. I've barely even been in a relationship ... so I'm the last person to talk y'know. I just wanted to reach through the phone or catch a flight to Missouri at that very moment and give her a hug. Just hug her and tell her it'll get better. I mean ... it has to right?

He's in England now. She's going on spring break pretty soon and he wants her to go over there.

"I dunno if you should," I said. "Maybe you should go some place else. How 'bout Hawaii? Probably not as expensive as the ticket to England."

"I wanna be with him"

"But sweetie ... he's bad for you. Do you want me to tell you like Miss Cleo?"

She laughed.

"Sweeetie .. da man eez bad fer you. You know dat. Miss Cleo knows," I said in my best Miss Cleo impression.

It was good to hear her laugh back the tears.

"Listen," I explained. "Its easy for me to say don't go. Y'know what? Maybe you should. You've never been to England have you?"

"No."

"So maybe you should really go. Its selfish for me to tell you not to. I've been there already. Go and take lots of pictures. Seriously. Take lots of pictures. See all the sites. Just make sure you have a return ticket so if he's a major asshole you can just leave whenever the hell you want."

"I just don't wanna be here alone for spring break."

"I know," I sighed ... paused for a while and then ... "Just don't be alone with him for too long. He'll wear you down faster like that. Go out and do stuff. And please use protection."

"I'm not having sex. I can't have sex ... since the ...." her voice trailed off.

"I know," I sighed. "I love you. I wish I could just hug you right now. It gets better though. Know that it does."

"I have to go soon and get something to eat."