Nyquil kicks ass! Seriously. My throat still hurts a little and this morning I coughed up something out of a Stephen King novel. But I don't feel as shitty as I usually do when I get a cold. All thanks to Nyquil and O.D'ing on vitamin C. Yay for over-the-counter drugs!

Today was pretty uneventful. Other than posting messages on the message board of http://smilingme.diaryland.com/22nd.html and seeing more and more how ignorant some people choose to be. Just made me even more upset and so I just left her alone. She replied to them all and then deleted them. Real smart cookie, that girl. You can't save everyone. I need to realize that.

Norm called me this morning. I didn't even know what to say. She'll be away for the holidays. Rosh Hashanah. I mean ... what do you say to someone who says they don't trust you? She said she left an envelope with money at Eric's office so I should pick it up and that I should call Richie (which I planned on doing anyway). I did right after hanging up. About seven or so times before finally getting him a couple hours later. Phone lines are still messed up. There's either the rapid busy signal ... or "Due to heavy calling, your call cannot be completed at this time. Will you please try your call again later."

So we set up to meet in White Plains tomorrow. He'll call me around 8:30 before leaving home and then I'll know for sure he'll be here so I can take the train up. I also called Keri. Called her a few times too before actually getting through. She was busy and said to call her back in five minutes. I did and then couldn't get through. Called again a few times before getting through to her voicemail. Left a message. She hasn't called back. I'm not sure if she still wants the sketches I did but I figure I'll drop them off tomorrow before ... or after going to White Plains. I wanted to do them over on a thicker stock, so maybe I'll drop by Utrecht after White Plains. Do them over tomorrow night and then just drop them off on Wednesday. If she doesn't want 'em ... fine.

I also called the lawyer who's processing my worker's permit. Never got through. He's an idiot and I don't think he knows what the hell he's doing. I might meet up with Rudy tomorrow night after White Plains. If I'm not too tired or cranky. I would email Jim and tell him that I'll be in White Plains tomorrow ... but I've given up on him. I was chatting with him the other day and realize there's no strong connection. I like him but I think I just had a silly crush on him. And now it doesn't seem to matter at all.

Aaron makes me laugh. Today he messaged me. Well ... he does that all the time ... but I was still feeling shitty. I still sorta do. He told me to smile. I told him something like "easier said than done." Then he said like ... "No no ... it's easy. first take left index finger and put it to the left side of your mouth...." The minute he said that I started laughing. I'm even laughing now just typing it.

I needed that.

I could just hear him saying it and having this look on his face.

He doesn't piss me off. Not like most guys I know. Like Victor. Pisses .. me ... off! Mainly because I always feel ignored by him. At least until he's horny or something. Then he goes on and on about how much he wants to 'make love' to me again. Bull shit. He's off my buddylist for good now.

But Aaron ... Aaron doesn't piss me off. I never feel ignored by him. Even if we're both online and not saying anything to each other for a while. Not that way for Victor though. He would be online for an hour before saying 'Hi'. And all I could think about is ... whoever he was trying to hookup with ... didn't work out so now he falls back on backup plan ... me. So glad I only slept with him that one time. One time too many even.

And it's not like I didn't try to be friends. I did! I'd suggest we go see a movie or something. Never happened. Mainly because halfway through the chat ... he'd start telling me he misses my body or something and my eyes would just flare out. He claims I teased him too. Which ... could be partly true. But I'm not horny 24/7 like him so we're never really insync. Like now? Anything but horny. Haven't been for a few days now. But like a little over a week ago? Oy! Total horn dog! Weird though ... because I never seem to go anywhere when I'm like that. Probably a very good thing.