Sex & The City was great. The ending was so cool and just like Carrie ... I'm in love with Aidan (John Corbett) again. I drooled over him all through the last season and it totally sucked when he and Carrie broke up. Aidan's what I see as the perfect boyfriend. Right down to that little noise he used to make when kissing. I see myself with someone like Aidan ... but I also see myself as Carrie. Cheating on him. Its weird the way we find something perfect. Something that makes us happy and ... end up trading it in for pain and unhappiness. I think it's a human flaw. Things are always 'too good to be true'. Instead of just going along with it. Just like they said in the Matrix. They built a perfect world without suffering and human mind just wouldn't accept it.

... Tangent.

Aidan looked great tonight though. I like that he cut his hair. I also like that he'll at least be in next week's episode. The more Aidan ... the better. I'm amazed at Samantha being in a relationship that long. And can Steve be any cuter? I love the way he talks.

Today was pretty quiet. I got up around 2 ... I think. I need a clock. There are no clocks in this apartment. Mark has a little one on the stereo but I never notice it or even remember it unless I'm right next to it. I lazed about the apartment listening to music. I had this ... I dunno ... urge I guess to hear "Just Another Day" by Jon Secada. I have no idea why but I searched through my CD's and found it. I let the song repeat about 21 times ... no kidding ... before putting another CD on. I just had to hear that song.

I did my laundry today. I love doing my laundry. I'm weird like that. The smell of Bounce on my clothes doesn't give me a rush or anything but I just like doing my laundry. The only part I hate is having to walk like 3 blocks to a laundry mat .... to get change ... to come back to home so I could use the machines in the basement. They need a frickin change machine. When I was walking back today, this little kid ... had to be a little kid ... was leaning out of a window I guess and said "Bitch" as I walked by. I didn't see him or anything. And it wasn't until I got to the end of the block that I realized what he said. I mean ... I'm guessing by the voice alone that he was no older than 6. Did he even know what he said? Did he really call me a bitch?

"I'm telling you ... not even old enough and already I'm getting no respect from him," I thought.

I started feeling this overwelming feeling of lonliness. Not Ranger. I know when it's him. It wasn't. I played around with my laptop and sat down to watch Sex & The City. Ten minutes into it ... Mark and Gyselle came home. I didn't expect them until maybe much later or tomorrow. We all watched the rest of the show. I got up like right after it ended, took a shower and started typing this.

Amber and I might go to the Palisades Mall tomorrow. I'm not sure. I'll have to call her in the morning and see what's going on. I also have to call Adam again. Maybe he'll want to meet up tomorrow. I have nothing planned for tomorrow so I'm pretty much open.

It's hot. I'm here just sitting on my bed in plaid boxers and a white tee ... wiggling my toes and looking at my toering every now and then. Listening to the neighborhood ... happen. I've noticed that kids here never go to bed early. I mean like little kids. Babysitters must be hard to get around here I guess ... cuz sometimes when I'm taking a walk at night along the boulevard ... parents are out looking at the city and the kids are with 'em too. I'll probably go for a walk in a while. I like sitting on a wall not far from here and just looking over at the city. Watching the cars go by and wondering where they're going and and where they're coming from. The view here is just so beautiful and I don't think I'll ever get tired of it.